You have to get over it. I know easier said than done, but Plty is right. What is the worst that can happen? Being someone who has seen a few things myself (lived in NY for 911, fishing the Prince William Sound, Hiking the Continental Divide, played in shows in bands across the NW, but come from a 'broken' home, etc.), I can only provide this as help to get over it. We are all human and we all have demons and pasts, some less colorful, some more, but more often than not, its ourselves that make these things much bigger than they are and more often than not, most people will relate better and have a better understanding of you by just letting it all hang out on your sleeve. This, however, does leave you out there for people to judge you more, and there will always be those negative judges and people LOVE to judge. I say let them. They cant judge me any worse than I judge myself on any wrong doing I did or had part in. So my point is, you have a good heart and are good natured, so I know whatever your past is, you will be your own worst judge, so in that, does it really matter what anyone else thinks? You've already condemned yourself and more than likely paid the price by holding your sins with you as to not repeat them. What can they do or say that you haven't already done or said to yourself? And so I say do it man! Real opportunities in life are not easy to come by. Also, maybe a good person to talk to about this would be @KingSpeed
I would watch a reality tv show about Speed going to sing the national anthem at all the NBA arenas wearing Travis Outlaw's jersey. (The Blazers one) . (*) to be honest, many of the episodes will end up like naked and afraid. (**) and where the crowd is really upset - maybe like the amazing race with Speed fleeing the arena.
for the record, I've never dissed you for the Meyers jersey...if Schilly's correct, you could have purchased a collector's item there!
if you do it, come up with a plan to become infamous and turn your 15 minutes into 30 minutes somehow.
