This is a Yahoo story so some won't like it but it is complete and it does strike some chords. https://www.yahoo.com/sports/anybody-going-132912421.html Some bits and pieces. I suggest you read the whole thing. Pretty good piece. Being depressed is exhausting. That’s one of the cruelest ironies about mental health. When you’re in a dark place, everyone around you — all your friends and family — they just want to see you doing what you love again, being happy, being “the old you.” Sometimes it feels like the world is looking at you saying things like, “Come on, man, just get over it. Don’t think like that. Just move on.” ....."Even in the best of times, my default setting was often dread. That’s just the way I’ve been wired since I was a kid. It’s like there’s a constant, low-level threat that I can sense in the pit of my stomach from the moment that I wake up in the morning. It’s like this white noise humming in the background, and it’s saying, Something bad is going to happen, any second now. That sense of dread would often be amplified by something in the news or by social media, and at any point could send me into a spiral." ....."I didn’t really know how to be comfortable in my own skin. I could never just be unapologetically Kevin, walking into a room. I was never in the moment, alive. It was always the next thing, the next game, the next, next, next. It was like I was trying to achieve my way out of depression. And so I guess it’s not surprising that some of the darkest moments of my life happened when that crutch of basketball got taken away. ....."Five years before the panic attack that everyone knows about, I was probably in the darkest period of my life. I’d only played 18 games with the Timberwolves that season, breaking my right hand twice, and that was when this whole … I guess you’d call it a facade or a character that I had sort of built up …. it all started crumbling."
I've always been vehement that I wouldn't want the guy on the Blazers, but person-to-person I feel bad for him. His suffering is real, his illness is real.
I appreciate Kevin for speaking out. Depression is such a weird thing to me when he talks about it. I don't know how to reconcile my own experience with his. There's just no way they could possibly be the same thing. Depression combined with being orphaned, molested, abandoned, homeless, impoverished, fatherless, banned from twitter/reddit, vilified(as a white male), COMPLETELY alone. He's not wrong when he speaks about depression. He just has support and doesn't know what it's like to be practically nothing.
