I love you BC. That's all I can really say during a time like this, even if I've gone through something similar, your situation is unique and nothing I could say can compare or consolidate. Just know I'm here, and if you ever need to talk about it, please shoot me a PM. You're a strong person and you will persevere, just remember that some consider 100 lbs heavy, while others consider 500 lbs such. Don't read the weight you lift, raise it over your head, drop it to the ground, and grin with appreciation and accomplishment as you glance the number. Peace, Love, and Happiness. Same goes to you Tlong, CC, Crand, and everyone else here who has been unfortunate enough to face this time in their life. Mad respect to all of you for your strength and perseverance to make it through such a tough time.
Sorry I'm late to this, BC. Just wanted to send my thoughts and prayers your way. I hope you find peace with only the happiest memories of your dad.